My life..online

While I was browsing on some online gifts, I came across another nice read for all the mothers out there.  Have fun reading!

We are about to go to a birthday party so I helped my kid get ready with his
costume, gift and backpack. Everything done, I decided it’s now time for me to
fix myself. As I was changing my clothes in the bedroom, I noticed that my
two-year old son is staring at the long scratch on my belly.

“Mama what happened to this?” he asked

“Ah, this? It’s nothing,” I said

“Does this hurt?” he followed-up. Oh my son is worried, it shows on his face.
And I almost forgotŠ yes it really hurt.

It’s been a long time since I worried about this long scratch. I then remember
my experiences during my pregnancy. Thinking back, those memories now seem so funny. I did not realize that I would totally forget my complaints about my figure and the physical changes that followed pregnancy.

There were so many changes in me that I did not expect. I thought I was not yet
ready then to have a baby, both physically and mentally. From the first stage of
my pregnancy, I was thinking about how to change diapers, how to feed the baby, how to nurture him, etc. Yes, of course, young expectant mothers feel the same way, but being a mother is instinctive. You will see the change in a matter of seconds as soon as you see the little being emerge from your body.

I still remember my happy-go-lucky days, enjoying the nightlife in Eastwood Park and spending time with friends in coffee bars, partying without thinking of
anything. Now, I just prefer to stay at home and watch my baby peacefully
yawning and sleeping in bed, not at all minding those sleepless nights of making bottles of milk.

To be honest, I still love to party, but not anymore in bars. Nowadays I go to
children’s parties instead. I still love chatting with friends, but now more to
mothers who share the same concerns.

Before, I easily lose my temper over crying babies; but now I realize that
becoming a mother makes you vulnerable. You will wonder, “What if that had been my child?” You begin to think about what is happening to that crying child, and you find yourself worrying and trying to figure out if the baby has eaten anything or if it needs to be fed. You will bother with street children; think why they aren’t in school, and wonder why their parents let them work at an early age. And you find yourself whispering “Thank You” because your baby does not suffer that fate.

Being a mother will change you, even your financial management. If you used to
be an impulsive buyer, if you used to find pleasure in buying cellphones,
clothes, gadgets and accessories, now, you will learn to tighten your belt and
see to it that every little purchase is useful and practical. Your feet will
bring you to the children’s section of supermarkets, browsing baby books and
clothes.

You will be busier and be always on the go; you will find that every minute is
important, and twenty-four hours in a day is too short. Your work routine in the
office will be much more hectic because you have to call your nanny just to make sure your baby is alright. You will run home, chase time, try not to catch
traffic, get home early, just to see your baby’s smile.

It was so funny to realize how I’ve changed. It’s as if I had been given a
makeover; my BEFORE and AFTER: from unmanageable to controllable, from
obstructive to cooperative.

And as I was analyzing each change in me, I now understand why the Lord set me to become what I am now. It was to understand the hardships of my own mother. Now I realize that becoming a mother is not easy. Being a mother is a profession of continuous learning.

I am now smiling when I realize that my son is talking to me. Once again, he
repeats his question, “Mama, does it hurt?”

I bend a little just so our eyes meet, then I say, “Ah, of course not! You know,
baby, you don’t need to worry about this. This scratch is a mark of my love for
you. Mama has to be cut just to get the most beautiful baby in the world, and
that’s you!”

He smiles… I think he was satisfied with that answer.