My life..online

Life is good. There are days when you can’t pinpoint one specific thing that makes you feel down and there are days when you can’t pinpoint one specific thing that makes you feel up. I’m in the up. All the way up.

I never thought that married life would be this good and that family life would be so much better. These days, I find myself not needing any reminders in an effort to make myself feel better. Waking up in the morning with baby Anjo smiling up at me and Joei’s arms around me are enough to make me feel grateful for the life I have now.

We’re still not that comfortable on the financial front but we still consider ourselves filthy rich just like before, if not more. Our days right now are filled with smiles and laughter, even if our minds are also sometimes filled with getting through to the next payday.

Everything is also okay, career-wise. I still consider myself a full-time employee. Being a full time office worker has also given me some “me” time, even though it’s not really to pamper myself. Hehe! It has allowed me to miss my baby peanut everyday which, I think, is necessary for the impatient me not to feel burdened with him and with the house.

This does not mean I don’t want anything more. Of course I do, I would love for things on the financial side to look up. But things are great right now and that’s more than enough. Thank you God!

I know it’s a little bit outdated but still I will give it a go. Just to let off some “steam”. I am just kidding my dear readers. Enjoy!

I am a baby that was born in a BIG family.

I am a baby that falls sick all the time.

I am that daughter who was naughty when she was supposed to listen to you.

I am that daughter who cried when you got sick.

I am that daughter who loved you for all you are and also for what you did for her.

I am that sister who argued with you all the time when something wasn’t right.

I am that sister who loved you for the way you treat me.

I am that sister who is thankful because you are ever protective over me.

I am that girl who cut her bangs short on purpose.

I am that girl who looked extremely skinny when she was growing up.

I am that girl who loves her parents and siblings.

I am that girl who cried the whole day because I didn’t want to wear a dress.

I am that girl whose very excited when new year is fast approacing.

I am that girl who grew up in my sister’s place because her mother is working.

I am that girl with vicious anger when she was small before she learnt the lesson of life – to be patient.

I am that girl who was brought up in a humble and down-to-Earth household nevertheless strict.

I am that girl who doesn’t look at beauty except for inner beauty.

I am that girl who grew up knowing that her nieces and nephews are only her friends.

I am that girl who has a dream to help those in need when she is capable of doing so next time – money wise.

I am that student who represented school in choir and sang her first song – TODAY

I am that student that you cared for when you told her to represent your class in something.

I am that friend who gives all her heart out in friendship.

I am that friend who loves her close friends a lot until she got hurt herself.

I am that friend who used to think about others and putting them in front before myself.

I am that friend who bought you the Ralph Lauren perfume because it was your favourite and she lived on bread and butter for two months.

I am that friend who needs your assurance, love and care.

I am that friend who drinks alone in her room when she is sad because of you.

I am that friend who walked you out of the gates of the university every day after lectures are over.

I am that friend who is always thoughtful and cautious when she is saying something because she knows that words can hurt someone badly.

I am that friend who was betrayed when she was only 16 and she gave everything to her best friend – emotion wise.

I am that friend who loves her close friends in university for who they are and not demand anything in return from them.

I am that friend who helps around without asking anything in return.

I am that friend who believes that whenever there is a will, there will always be a way.

I am the friend who promised to herself that she will treat all her friends nicely regardless they are just my reality or online friends.

I am that girl, that sister, that daughter, and that friend who will promise all her friends to be who she is forever and stay true to herself.

This is one of the meme that made me reflect my past actions, memories and it evoked me while I was blogging about it. I was teary eyed when I blogged about this because I guess all the memories were rummaging through my brains.